When Nothing is Going Right... Go Left.

So today has not been a very wonderful day... to say the very least.

i have been trying to do everything in my power to make sure that everyone around me is happy and content with their lives and i have been killing myself doing so... it seems as though i should at the very least be granted the decency of a "thanks Angel, i appreciate it" every once in a great while. i don't feel like that is to much to ask.

In other news... my boyfriend is absolutely amazing lately. He has been the only thing really holding me together. I love that we have been doing so well lately. I love that even in the midst of this chaotic world that i have somehow found myself immersed in, he still manages to make me feel happy. i love that about him.

i do not know what in the world i would ever do with out this man.

i've caught myself a good one... now to figure out how to trap him for good. =P

NO, i know he loves me.

Moving on, i am currently sitting here on my mom's bed with my macbook laying open in front of me. My mother is sleeping a few feet away from me. Do you know how hard it is to type quietly??!?

I think that people in my life are getting upset with me a lot lately because i have been complaining about my life pretty non-stop to basically anyone who will listen to me... i suppose this is not a very attractive quality in a friendship... =/ but what else am i supposed to do? i have learned from experience that i cause myself WAY bigger problems if i keep things bottled up inside for forever... i gave myself stomach ulcers that way... i don't want to make them worse. That's all i need right? MORE doctor bills to pay for? Not so much. =/ ugh.

i feel like everytime i get on here to make another post it is filled with a whole bunch of negative things in my life. why do i only get the strong urge to blog when i am having a horrible day? does that make any DAMN sense to you??! is anyone even reading this mumbo jumbo?

wow.

i just realized that there is a very large chance that i am just blogging quietly to myself.

what. is. wrong. with. me.

grrr.

i don't even want to begin to touch on that subject... so i think i may have found a fairly decent resting point for this.

Until.

-Angel.

Duct Tape Mummy, or Creative Cocoon?

This are very different now than they were a few months ago when I blogged last. And yet, so very the same as well.

It seems like I always start these things on a negative note. In the new year i am trying to be more positive. So here are some positives. =)

•I've got a job now.
•I have been in a better mood lately.
•I can help my Grama out.
•Dylan and I are doing better lately.
•My birthday is in 8 days.
•My friends are amazing.
•I got my Dani and Tab out of the situation that they were in.
•I feel great about myself.
•I am losing weight.
•I no longer feel anything like a bum.

These random things could go on forever. But basically? I'm liking life right now. At the moment I'm laying in my bed with my dog and I'm dozing off faster that I am typing this.

More tomorrow? Hope you don't mind.


If, you know, anyone decides to read this.